Saturday, May 29, 2010

"Fragile" by Sting

Join us over on Scrapping the Music this week.  The song is awesome.  It's by Sting called "Fragile."  Thought about that first day and night with Emma and wrote a little poem on the side and stamped handle with care under the pictures.

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Friday, May 21, 2010

One Year Ago Today...

We got our call from the agency of our referral!!!  And I hit the "Get Mail" about a hundred times to get the email to see her pictures for the first time.  I cannot believe how much time has gone by, especially since the first 6-7 months home we were running on adrenaline...;)

I decided at the last minute to take Emma to the petting zoo today...although she wasn't really interested this time in petting the sheep or goat.  But as soon as I said "you want to ride the choo choo?"  She was we road the choo choo and then I asked her if she wanted to ride the carousel.  Thought she'd be a little scared, but after the sign language of more and her saying more more in between tears...we rode three times total!  Twice on the gorilla and once on the tiger...and now that we're home she's saying "back" "back"  ;)

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Wednesday, May 19, 2010


Sneezing, sinuses draining, but still going strong!  HA!  Well, she is more than me ;)

I'm thinking this is allergies for her right now and not a cold...because of it lasting so long now...but the sneezing and the projectile snot doesn't stop her ;)

Right back to playing the with iPhone...added a few more fun Apps for her like "Five Little Monkeys," "Fish School," "ABC Train," and "ABC Animals."  Her most favorite still though is the Itsy Bitsy Spider."  She can collect all of the Easter Eggs!  I only showed her how to do that once...

And finally...Dada agreed to let Mama (that would be me) move all of her scrapping things into the not used and totally wasted dining room space.  I ordered these tables from Office Max.  Free Shipping!  Can't beat and awesome prices...Although it was a little shocking to see an 18-wheeler come up the street and blowing his horn!  

Okay...anyway...EVERYONE loves Mama's (that's me again) space!  Emma loves playing the games on the computer that her speech therapist told us about.  One that she is doing here with Dada is done in one of the local schools here.  It's and it's free...she loves it.  But her most favorite one is the Thomas and Friends website...she loves the videos on the homepage and LOVES the matching game.

It's nice being out in the open and so close to the kitchen...and the rolling organizers I also got through Office Max fit under the table...I set aside some drawers just for her like she has in the kitchen so it kind of just have to remind her where her drawers are ;)

Up Up Up...she loved the blocks so much that she was doing with the speech therapist, and I found these similar ones at Tuesday Morning...

Another site the speech therapist gave me is DLTK crafts for kids.  They have lots of things on there, but one thing that we did here goes along with the book Brown Bear Brown Bear What Do You See...I was amazed we got to the Blue Horse! 

 But she loved all giddy...

And if you're like me...I did not know there is washable picked some up at Michael's for the little artist...

The little artist also likes to run run run!  She loves to push her baby's stroller and for Dada to push her toy car and go round and round and round and round...then she stops and says "Momma"  So then we all follow Emma round and round and round and round!

Since day one it seems...she has loved to walk on her toes...and she likes to dance on her toes as well...I just love those little feet!!!

And seriously...she gets more beautiful everyday...

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Friday, May 14, 2010

Challenge #134 "Gotta Be Somebody" is Up!

This weeks challenge is up over on Scrapping the Music.  So many ideas and feelings with this song by Nickelback!  Michelle always picks a really good variety of songs.  Sometimes you can just pick a word from the song but sometimes the feeling of the song inspires you.  Either way it gets you scrapping and creating!

This weeks' song had more of a feeling for me and inspired me to scrap a layout of "the moment" Emma and I first met..."I knew I'd spend forever with you."

Whether you're new to scrapbooking or not, come play along!

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Friday, May 07, 2010

Happy Mother's Day and Looking Back...

I had recently looked into getting more information from the orphanage on Emma.  I felt a little greedy in a way asking for more, because the director had already given us so much.  But I felt if I don't ask, I'll never know.  The orphanage Emma was at for a year in Chenzhou was part of the Half the Sky Foundation.  So besides the work of the orphanage caregivers and other workers there, Half the Sky Nannies come into the orphanage and work with the babies and children.  The Chenzhou Half the Sky site has a link on their site that you can fill out and request reports on your child.  We did not do the requested donation of $300 as we had just recently adopted and did our donation at that time.  But Chenzhou Half the Sky will now be what we give to as a regular basis as a family.  I did receive the reports back.  They were the same as what we were given at the time of adoption...BUT they had the color photos.  Not having Emma with us when she was born or even before she turned one, has been really difficult for me lately, and this information is bitter sweet, as I'm sure it will be for Emma when she gets older as well. 

The photos and the report just confirm what we see daily...her development has no delays whatsoever.  And also shows the love the nannies from Half the Sky showed her.  But what always bothered me from all of the photos of Emma at the orphanage, is she looked so sad.  I know now she is as happy as can be and gets happier still every day.  But what kind of long term effects of not bonding with a Mother and being there will she have?  Recently, she ran away and back to me from an Asian man with a big camera.  She constantly, and sometimes with anxiety, takes her hand to our chests to confirm who we are and to herself.  It's little things we see that other families would not understand.

I went out of town for the scrap event and that was too soon to leave.  If she had been given to us by birth, I wouldn't be concerned with leaving her like that.  But with her only be with us 9 months, we can see she needs to feel more secure.  Since I've been back she's gone back to being very clingy and not letting either one of us (mainly Dennis right now since I'm the one that went out of town-which makes me very sad) out of her sight, shows me that was too soon to leave like that.

I had wanted to put a little video of pictures together using the song Wo Ai Ni (I Love You) by S.H.E.  So I used the very rare photos of Emma growing up her first year, the pictures of the orphanage and her crib given to us by the director, and some of the other pictures are from the Chenzhou Personal Blog.  And the last part is video of Emma first waking up on the third day of us together...she still looked so sad, but she was slowly started to notice that she had the same two people there for her every morning when she woke up, and her trying to do kisses, which she had done the very first morning with us (not even 24 hours together)...and definitely started to smile just a little more...

So this is bitter sweet and I wanted to share...

Untitled from Patricia Roebuck on Vimeo.

Here are the translated lyrics to Wo Ai Ni:

Using your eyes to see myself, the happiest reflection.
The connection that we hold in our hands is our guidance for tomorrow.
It doesn't matter near or far
When we embrace in heaven or wander in the wilderness.
I love you, I am willing to go
To whatever life I do not know
I love you, I am willing
Allowing you to step forward and decide (and decide and decide. . .)
The end of the world
Occasionally I don't really understand you
But who really understands themselves?
Sometimes the closer two people get
Is through hurt to prove it
Like worried and uncertain, I am stubborn and demanding
Afraid to show you're afraid, so you get angry
I love you, let me listen
To when you are tired and scared
I love you, I want to kiss your heart
That is stained to the limit. . .
I hold up all the love to push back the wind and the rain
To hold back the storm, want to let you breathe
The fault that was cut
Need time to heal
Dreams are tangled with suspicion
Cannot see the future clearly
So a tight embrace can deliver through strength and courage
I love you. . .
I love you so I want to go
To the unknown, any sort of life
I love you, let me listen
To when you are tired and scared
I love you, I want to kiss
Your heart that is strained to the limit
Wherever we go, we go together
Together to look at the stars
Walk out of a forest,
Share memories
To understand jealously,
To wait for the sun after the rain
To understand ourselves better,
To find meaning together
I love you
I can't not have you
I cannot not have you
I cannot not have you

Feeling the iky yicky ache of the lost year of not having that special bonding between a little baby and a mother...I did these art journal pages...

It's pretty obvious that she has blossomed and transformed since being home.  I used this photo of her at Gymboree when she first started to feel very comfortable being in the places we'd take her.  This was in it did take awhile for her to get to this point.  This is also a layout for Scrapping the Music. The song for this week's challenge is Rainbow Connection.  Awesome song that has so many possibilities but also such a fun happy please come join in on the fun and let me see what you create!!!

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Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Scrapping the First Few Weeks and The Wrong Patricia...Hmmmm???

When I was packing up to go to Faith 365 Scrapping Event, I knew I couldn't bring my entire little corner of paints, mists, papers, clip it ups, I do when I go to Scrapfest...  'Planning' layouts or pages for me is not for me.  What I found is as I planned, I ended up scrapping!!! 

We had only been home from China for about a month and a half...but already rugrat loved Starbucks as much as us!!!
And these pics were not even a month home just yet!!!  Wow!!!  Cannot believe how well she was doing...although she was still freaked out by the camera...

And these pics were from the first week home!!!'s the layouts that I 'tried' to plan...I have no idea what I was thinking at the just didn't worry, and put it together...definitely not my favorite, but captures the memory...

And here's one that I planned!  LOL!  Although I did finish it all except for the journaling and little embellishments...

I think this one I actually did most there with what I had planned...but had to finish when I got home with stitching and embellishments...

Another that I planned, but had to finish once I got home...that would have been yesterday actually ;)

And I've been so inspired by Marit's class, that I'm 'practicing' my art journaling more...did these for my calendar...

And some shocking news for me and LOL, probably for others, cause I still think they got the wrong Patricia!!!  LOL!!  

Michelle from Scrapping the Music asked me to be a designer on Scrapping the Music challenge blog...yeah, that's what I thought see...maybe they thought I was a different Patricia!

And what an awesome intro that Michelle did...

Scrapping the Music has been my favorite challenge blog.  What I love about the blog is:

the design team is awesome
they are fun and encouraging
EVERYone's work is recognized
all those that participate are friendly and awesome as well
music is THE BEST form of inspiration

And what I'm looking forward to with being a member of the team:

'hopefully' inspiring and being inspired even more
getting to know the team and EVERYone who plays more
growing more and being more creative
having FUN

Come check it out and be prepared to inspire as well as find inspiration, and meet some wonderful come play with us!!!

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Monday, May 03, 2010

Work It Baby!

I've been scrapping and looking back over a lot of the first pictures of too...and we could see it then how she just wasn't too crazy about the camera.  And it's even more noticeable and funny now because not only does she smile for the camera, but she has gotten in front of other people's cameras and said 'cheese'!!!  What a transformation in 8-9 months.

Not only does she look simply 'smashing' as she wears her mashed potatoes on her, but look at that little face?!  I've got her a camera tucked away for her birthday...because she is taking after me and loves to take if I can just hold out and not give it to her yet!

She is loving to wear her ponytail now on top of her head...and even her bow in her hair!  But first and foremost...she loves shoes!!!

And gotta sneak in my beautiful boy!  How relaxing a cat can be...he's so sweet...

And this was from earlier in the month of April that we went to the Asian Fest at the zoo...gorgeous day to go! 

Thankfully we brought another outfit...because on the ride over we had a little leakage...

Got a chance to checkout the monkeys this time around...oh man...she loved them...a little scared, but still loved them...I think everyone around us were entertained by us making the monkey noises...hmmm...

And when we sat for a little bit of the music for the fest...she'd get up and dance and twirl around...she got to see the violins too...which right now is her favorite instrument on her ABC wooden puzzle.  

And the best part is she got to see her friend again from the Chenzhou Orphanage.  It's just amazing how we live so close coming from halfway across the world.

And last weekend I went to cajun country for a scrapping event called Faith 365.

Amy put the event together and really did so much for everyone in making it so nice.  She had an embellishment bar, candy bar, tool bar, and drinks and snacks, plus we had about four of our meals provided...and tons and tons of prizes...nice prizes too!  I met Amy through Scrap in Style and was so glad to meet her in person. 

And, of course, the Yo Scrappa Scrappas got together again...we were next to an antique store, so we had a little good to see them again.

Tomorrow will be a week, and she is doing sister had major surgery last Tuesday, and came home on Thursday...  She's an example of how everyone does different with surgery, because she is really doing great...I had similar surgery...and it wiped me out...

So Emma is helping me take care of Aunt Lisa ;)  Although today she walked Aunt Lisa around in a circle with the broom...ouch!

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